| the 8th cheated again |
[Mar. 8th, 2009|02:15 pm] |
so ive eaten 400 calories today, which consisted of a peice of toast and cereal... that wasnt in the plan, but i can forgive my self because i still ave 500 calories to gooo whooop.
the thing that sucks is i have to go out to dinner tonight with the sorority girls..
i have to be healthy... and i have to work out after my class tonight.
we will see how it does today is the first day of the 28 day plan sooo i will be posting later tonight
PS i think i need to break up with my boyfriend i dont know how to tell him im not actually in love with him i just need him to keep my self esteem up..... but hes making me eat so hes a goner. |
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[Mar. 6th, 2009|06:10 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | im gross | ] |
| [ | music |
| | little women, movie | ] |
so tomorrow starts this diet, i have to take out all carbs....
theres no reason for me to be eating theese thigns they are only cravings its very silly, i never ate them before so why now why why must i be so discusting now, after all the work i had done on my body. salt i need to take away salt. it builds cravings for horrid things.
i cannot wait for tomorrow,
coffee and tea and veggies and fruit. im not only doing this to rid myself of this horrid weight im gathering around but also to clear my skin and improve my hair and all sorts of great things it will do.
see you tomorrow
be rid of this body and be beautiful |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 19th, 2009|07:57 pm] |
food is flight, you taste it for seconds it stay on you and in you for hours, i want to be weightless
oh I almost forgot I wanted to list my stats for right now ew im embarresed
HW:176
CW: 170
LW:130
GW:140
DREAM WEIGHT: 120 (that will take alot of work for now lets get down to 140 by summer. |
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| 28 day plan starting tomorrow |
[Feb. 19th, 2009|07:55 pm] |
So im starting this tomorrow. I screwed u my whole news years resolution once again. UGh im so gross. Anyways So I figured to make this official I would list my rules.
800 calories a day (if its a day for some reason I cannot make it to the gym its 400)
45 mins of excersize
at least 2 liters of water
NO:
Fried Foods
Anything white
Dairy (just dont it makes me sick anyways)
OK so Ill post tomorrow somebody send me good thoughts so I can really get a my old thing body back and stick to thing plan |
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| master cleanser |
[Nov. 15th, 2007|12:42 am] |
so im starting the master cleanser tomarrow im going to do it until christmas break. yes i realize it will be verry hard but im going to do it as much as possible over thanksgiving break (im in college). i will prolly have to nibble on things during break becuase i have a very nurotic about eating best freind. ill work out a ton oer break because ill have nothing to do so that will help ofset my meal and ect.
so master cleaser includes the lemonaide, with tea and everything. im doing this for a totoal of six days, (realisticlly i cant do it over break.) ill do water fasting, coffee and nibbles over break. then back on the fast for a complete totoal of 22 days. which begins christmas break where i will begin to ween off with juice. after juice its strict veggies for a week. then add in fruit. afterthis im going for a no dairy no carb lifestyle. i want to see what it does to my hair and skin.
so i have a goal of losing 40 pounds.
hight 5' 5'' (very active)
HW:180
CW:160
LW:130
GW:120
the 120 is completly doable.
i just have to work at this. im doing the cleanse to get rid of all my bodily cravings. and my caffeen addiction. im going to start a new much healthier hobby. teas. they have so many great purposes. healing calming ect.
well ill report on the cleanse starting tomarrow. OOOOH im so excited.
food is flight, you taste it for seconds it stay on you and in you for hours, i want to be weightless |
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| i want to be weightless |
[Jul. 27th, 2007|08:32 pm] |
H: 5' 5.5
HW: 166 the reason i got my ED i used to be very over weight
CW:166
LW:125
GW:110 lindsey lohans skinny weight. its a long way off but def possible.........
i just got weighed today, i weight more then i ever have in mylife, it starts now, im not dealing with this anymore.
food is flight, you taste it for seconds it stay on you and in you for hours, i want to be weightless |
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| im discusting |
[Jul. 27th, 2007|08:23 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | fat | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  embarrassed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | mason jennings | ] |
k a few weeks ago i said i was going to start this of oarse i didnt start, im using this as motivation, i went to the doc today, and got weighed. i weighed 165, i am amrathon runner so im used to weighing about 130, i cannot even believe i let myself gain that much on the off season. tomarrow im starting a 28 day fast. JUICE only ladies.
i have about 2 weeks till i go to school this should give me a bit of a boost, on days i go out and drink, i may have some solid fruit in the morning like a banana or apple, THATS it. and that cabbage soup. when i get my check if i have been good until next friday im ordering lipodrene. i have to get unfat this is just rediculous. i dont want to be living in the sorority and be this overweight. and i dont want to start purging again. coffe, ciggs, juice, thats it. its beat cravings by sleeping or going on walks.. i have to purge myself from that he is a negative aspect in my life, has made me feel terrible about myself. after one week of juice fasting i am goin on the master cleanser. it will be hard but i need to do this. i am just so discusting i cannot imagine living like this anymore. words that describe me: flabby, iggly, rolls, tight pants, double chin, cellulite, gross, sloth, ugly |
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| i hate myself |
[Jul. 10th, 2007|06:38 pm] |
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i hate my body and everything about it. i have gained so much weight since this school year and i have to take it all off i am just discusting, just fat and rolly and jiggly and large and gross. im going to start fasting tomarrow i have kept saying that but not i must really start i cant be this fat anymore. its just gross. i have to change. im starting tomarrow and will be skinny soon. i just have to work really hard. if u dont eat u cant gain weight... no more eating. |
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| 92/76 |
[Jun. 27th, 2006|11:45 pm] |
food 1/2 still ate some carbs that i wish i hadnt i WONT tomarrow i know i keep saying that buy im sticking too it
water 2/2
ex 2/2
post 2/2
challange 2/2 |
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| sunday day 7 |
[Jun. 26th, 2006|01:00 am] |
well i am osting on sunday but i cant get the thing to timestamp right
i did fabulous today i went to a grad party and didnt eat a nick and i worked out like CRAZY
food 2/2
water 2/2
ex 2/2
poost 2/2
challage 2/2
7/0/62
oh guys im kinda upset right now because i should have lost weight by now but i had those 2 stuipid binge days and i absolutly refuse to purge because i dont want to start that again i dont want to ruin my teeth but im ruining my body, i really wish that i hadnt done that because i feel fat again i just want time to fly by because im going to do reeally weel this week and all until the plan is over i hope i can stick to it XOXO think thin |
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| yesterday dAY 6 |
[Jun. 25th, 2006|10:21 am] |
yesterday was horrible i had the worst day, eating wise, i cant even belivev myself i fyeel like rap and im bloated and gross, whats wrong with me i was going to sood i did a perfect 5 day fast and then ble it and ate horrible for 2 days i suck..... anyways its sunday and so its the start of round tw of the plan... 500 cals a day, only fruits or vegitables no carb unless its plain oatmeal or whole wheat bread or beans, less fruit more vegies, NO SWEETS NO FAT, only carbs every other day, no alc, 2 cups of green tea a day, i know this is really stict but it will change in a week because im changing my plan every week like last week was fasting this week is this you get it
yesterdays stats
6/0/48
food 0/2
water 2/2
ec 0/2
chall 0/2
post 0/2
i think i should have lost weight from that fast but i gained it all back because i have eaten HORRIBLE the past two days im discusting, i have to be really good until 4th of july, ill be beack later tonight to tell u all about today |
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| 5/????/46 < should be 50 |
[Jun. 23rd, 2006|04:42 pm] |
i messed up again today 2nd day in a row, im not doing this anymore luckly i ate early morning so i can work it all off today im fasting starting now and until sunday at least, then only lowfat protien no carbs until july
food: 0/2 i binged i cant even believe how much its like embarresing to say WHEW and on the worst things bacon sausage and pancakes are u kidding me at least it tasted good lol has anyone ever binged on somthing that tasted gross? that would be so odd
water 2/2
ex 2/2
post 2/2
challange 2/2
on the flip side my stomich looks awsome and my rib bones are starting to show again so i must be losing some and my cheekbones are coming out more theese days |
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[Jun. 21st, 2006|06:03 pm] |
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i lied to my best friend last night, and i dont think i have ever even done that.. she used to have an ed and she is in recovery and she was telling me about all the stuipid things she did and asking me god isnt that dumb i just didnt see it and i had to agree with her while all the while i was thinking wow i should try that it might help, and she eve came out with the fact that she is going to counciling and that was really hard for her because she sees it as a weakness and i really appeciate her trusting me with that ... but i still like had to support her decision but and i want to tell her all the diets ive been on and stuff because she was asking me things but i cant because i dont want to stop maybe ill tell her in a month when i reach my goal weight that might work becase its alot easier to keep weigt off then lose it ya know |
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| 2/0/19 |
[Jun. 20th, 2006|08:08 pm] |
Ok so its day two and i had another good day GO ME, but im only weighing in every 7 days so thats why its staying at zero HOPEFULLY
Food: 2/2
Water: 2/2
Ex: 1/2
post: 2/2
Challange/ 2/2 |
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| sabatagers |
[Jun. 20th, 2006|01:11 am] |
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i feel alot better today i fasted all day and did TONS of housework, i lveo it when my house is just fresh clean, i also got alot done which lifted tons of stress i feel soo much better about everything. my best friend called me tonight and she wants to come over tomarrow after we gt off work. God that scares me beause she is one of those people that have a crazy metabolism, she actually is taking things to help her gain weight because she is too thin, to slow down her matabolism, and she eats over 3000 cals a day. I cant even imagine. anyways shes gunna want to bake and all this junk that i am not going to want to do which its going to be hard to convince her that im not eating because im not hungry, that or i dont feel good one of the two... BLAH shes going to sabatage my fast |
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[Jun. 19th, 2006|01:56 am] |
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i am soo fat right now its sick, this is my first post and its going to keep me in check im going to post what i eat and whatnot
I am totoal and complete ana except for those times when i falter and binge.
H: 5' 5.5
HW: 160 the reason i got my ED i used to be very over weight
CW:142
LW:125
GW:110 thats the weight lindsey was and she is a bit taller then me i want to be thinner then her
i just gained a ton of weight because i had my wisdom teeth out and my mother shoved ice cream down my throat forever and i am so dicusting i used to be very fat because i was homeschool ad never did anything i was lazy and not worth a dime, anyways i totoally got that all cleared up and went to public school realized OMG im gross and lost a bunch of weight by not eating anyways i have to lose that weight again because this is un exceptable
IM going on a 5 day fast starting tomarrow and then after that its 2 apples a day and as much gree tea and lemon water as possible for 5 days then for the next 10 its the under 500 rule
i was thinking today about the governtments 2000 cals a day and that is insane , how could anyone ever eat that much food i cant even imagine you would gain soooooooo much weight if u did that for a week like soo much YUCK |
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